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One full lap around the sun. Giving birth to you was like doing it for the first time. My last birth was a failed induction ending in a C section, so the round with you felt like my first rodeo, in a sense.
I had been in a slow labor all night, and upon waking up from my restless night of contractions, I made my way to my dr appt, at 9am half expecting to stay, half expecting to be sent home again... They let me stay.
A full day of laboring, with my support team, my doula, working me and hubs with her rebozo to get babe in the best position we could.
It was raining. I loved it. I was, however, exhausted from my body going thru prodromal labor for about 2 weeks, then pretty intense the night before. During my contractions, water breaking, and seriously contemplating just having him delivered via c section, I opted for an epidural. It was a break I needed. My doula left to eat, and within an hour , my contractions picked up ten fold and the urge to push was there. My amazing doula got back, and I was yelling at them, begging that I was gonna push whether they wanted me to or not, my body was taking over. And it knew what it was doing. 15 minutes later I had pushed Raynard out, my Rayn man delivered in the rain, was here. All 9lbs 2 oz of him.
During clean up, a nurse mentioned to me that my epidural has come out and was not in my back. Well, that made sense as I felt everything. I didn’t care. I did it.
And now. You are a walking bright sun shower daily. Raynard Benji, the level of completeness you bring to our lives is absolutely incredible and we are so glad you picked us, picked me to be your mom. I live daily for your antics with your brother, the way you kick your feet excitedly when you see me with a snack. The way you yell at the dogs and ask for “nomnom”, or when you crawl like there is a fire under your ass whenever you see a gate or door open.
Today is your day baby, I know we snuck some birthday cupcakes last night, but ... guess what’s for breakfast, too!? I love you so much, thank you for coming into our lives, and changing us all for the better.